pulled apart by the powers that be

life is unpredictable. very very unpredictable. especially mine here lately. nothing really seems to go as planned. all my plans for the summer never happened...and now instead of a job related to anything i want to so in my career, i am selling gasoline and cigarettes at a gas station. it's a job, but not what i planned, or even expected. nothing just seems to go like i thought it would. there are alot if things in my life that arent going to go as planned. not that it is all bad. there are a lot of good things coming up in my future, but its going to be hard to change some things. i am going to be missing out on a lot of things i really loved and i was really looking forward to. there are benefits to both sides, now its just a matter of deciding which way im suppose to go. i know god is leading me, its just hard to decide which one he wants me to do as opposed to what i want to do. earlier i felt like writing a whole lot. but now i dont, im just kinda in a weird place right now. there are going to be some changes in my life soon, and im just trying to figure out how to deal with them


anyway, i took a whole bunch of pictures today, im at brians and i left my usb cable at home. so they will be posted later. and there are many typing and spelling mistakes in this, but i dont care right now.

slacking on the posting

Well it's been a while since I’ve posted anything. And in listed form here are my lame excuses
1. Time
2. I have to use the crappy pc for the internet right now. I don’t like it
3. Because I have to use this computer, I cannot use my laptop...which I like to type on and hate using this crappy keyboard. Its killing me right now.
4. I usually post things when I stay up all night, and I haven’t done that since I was in Searcy

anyway, here’s stuff I’m going to post about. I had another post mostly written and even typed, but never finished it. One day maybe.

Well I finally got a job. I was hoping to get one related to what I do...like TV or photog or something. I was pretty excited when the greene county daily world told me they would have me take some pictures, but I’m kinda irritated at them right now. I've got 6 pictures published and still haven’t gotten paid. They probably won’t get too many more pictures from me, even after I get paid. But I do have a job now. I'm working with Elaine’s dad at the circle k/shell in Ellettsville. So basically I sell gas and cigarettes to the odd characters you find over in Ellettsville. It’s interesting. A couple people came in today absolutely baked. But hey, it pays.

Ben is in Honduras right now, I’m jealous. He's there with all these cool people, and doing all this cool stuff, and helping out all these cool people. And oh the photographic opportunities. I've been to Tegucigalpa 3 times, and I sooo want to go back. B4 I left school I was talking to a friend from Central America, and she was telling me about another mission in Tegucigalpa that she was helping with, and all it did was make me want to go more. I hate when people tell me I need to stay and make money. I already have more than they do, why can’t I just go help them? I don’t know, but here I sit. Getting frustrated at this keyboard. I’m buying a wireless router next week so I can use my mac. But anyway, check out the blogs from people in duras with been. http://shutterbugf5.blogspot.com/ and http://torchmission.blogspot.com/

anyway, life has been interesting lately. Its good to be home, but it's weird. I don’t know where life is heading right now. Well I do, but I just don’t know how to get there. I don’t know if I’m gonna be at Harding in the fall. I’m looking at other stuff. I’ve sorta made a decision, but I’m still not positive. I dunno. I really love the people I’ve met in Searcy, and I’ve had and still have tons of opportunities there, but there are other things that deter from that. I’ll probably go into more detail later. Once I can stop using this stupid keyboard.

o ya, and I got a new lens...yay! It’s nothing real fancy, at least for anyone who knows much about photography. It’s a Nikon lens, 70-300 f4-5.6 it’s nice and long, which I needed. And it was only 95 bucks from some dude in Pennsylvania. I dunno how to spell Pennsylvania.

And before I give up writing anything of substance because I’m tired, who all reads this? I got that little map thing and see that there’s some that do, I just dunno who? Just in the past few days when I post nothing I see people have looked at it from Searcy, here in southern Indiana, Los Angeles, and like Fort Lauderdale or something. Who are you people? I don’t know too many people from la. Or any that I can think of. o well.

But I’m going to bed, adios. Pray for me, and ill pray for you